somedays i wish i knew my father

maybe this would help unlock the mysteries in me.
like certain things about myself that have always been strange to me
theyre only strange because i dont understand them
where were yu Dad when i need yu to explain them?
where were you for graduation?
where were you to tell me i was beautiful ?
where were you to tell me i looked a fcukin mess?
i needed you Dad.
i need you when my car broke down.
i needed you to tell me how to tell me to pick the right guy
i needed you to tell me how TO LOVE the right guy
who WANTS to be with me?
i lack the skils to be a DAMN girlfriend
mother did her BEST but there were somethings she JUS COULDNT teach me
even then i jus wish i knew you,
sometimes its scary to think that if you passed
i wouldnt miss you.
i cant be sure i would shed a tear.
the relationship didnt exist.
but im trying because i need to get something out of you..
fcuk what Mom said, you never had to give me anything for my bday.
you NEVER ever had to pay child support
i jus needed you to call me every once and awhile.
see how im livin
and encouraged me to get wherever i needed to go..

life is as hard as it is already... i would least be able to this is my father, and remember the things he taught me...

I AM SICK OF TALKING ABOUT BOYS!!!!

itsalreadyyours.

do yu ever find yourself so overwhelmed with emotions that it jus makes you want to cry.
YU jus cant let anybody get to you
you gotta take that little piece inside yourself..
that tells you maybe you could be this..
AND BLOW IT THE FCUK UP!!
yuve gOT to KNO youve got GOD
& start KICKIN DOORS down.
youve got to HAVE THE confidence to let people kno that YOUVE ARRIVED
people WILL TALK SHIT.
BUT ITS YOUR LIFE; YOUR WORLD
as longgg as you have an understanding with God nothing they SAY matters..
take this as your strength Tests.
be ready to put in the WORK
no ones gonna respect a dreamer who SITS ON theyre ass!!
TAKE EVERY OPPURTUNITY to display your talent
believe in YOURSELF.
it will seep through yur pores
and sneak up on someone else.
they'll believe yu.
jus GO FOR IT !

:)