so I couldnt wait to be a Mommy....
although im smart enough to realize i cant handle one now..
but i couldnt help to fantasize about the journey...
goin backwards..
i SWORE i wouldnt be a Mom before i am a wife
my children will ALWAYS have their Mother&Father around
and i thought well damn finding jus a stable guy friend is hard enough
and then again its like fcuk id have to be a wife..
and to be a wife i have to be a grown woman
oh but wait to be a grown woman takes alot of time, experience, independence and maturity
fcuk i cant even take care of myself now and you want me to stand proud and tell you im a woman?
yikes!
hell im only 19, half the time i still act 17..
i dont WANT TO GROW UP!
that 'Mom' shii can wait this must be a phase..
Yes this is just a phase?!?! An Uuuuuuugly phase! A child is a blessing most indeed but, it's something that takes mature, responsibility! You've got PLENTY of time so, enjoy your freedom & independence now because once you have a child you'll never be independent...You become their dependent...and THEY NEVER GO AWAY!! NO MATTER WHAT!!
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